Where were you?
September 11th, 2006It was a gorgeous morning. Crisp. Clear. I'd gotten to work a little early, around 8:30 and was sitting in my co-worker Gary's office bs'ing. Another co-worker Judy, whose office is across the hall from Gary's, had just arrived at work. She put her belongings on her desk and came in and said, “Something fucked-up is going on. A plane just hit the World Trade Center. I just heard it on the radio.” Judy is a bit more worrisome than I, so I assuanged her with, “Oh it's probably just some idiot pilot in a Cessna. Jeez it was bound to happen sooner or later. It's happened to the Empire State Building a few times.” She shrugged and went to her office.
I got up and went to mine and went to the CNN website on my computer. I figured this would be a good story.
I don't recall the details, but the “breaking news” story mentioned the possiblity that it was a much larger plane than some small private one that an inexperienced pilot might be flying. While I was intrigued, I started to do my work for the day.
About 10 more minutes went by, and I heard Judy down the hall again. “This is fucked UP! Something's going ON!” I got up and went down the hall. “What's up?” I asked.
“Another plane hit the Trade Center!” she answered.
“Holy shit, ” I thought, “Now something IS fucked up.” I walked around the office and to see if anyone had a radio or TV on. Someone had a radio going and I stood there listening to sketchy reports. Nobody in the media truly knew what had happened. What they did know was that both towers were now on fire and that police and firefighters were on the scene.
We had a TV on a cart that we brought into one of owner's offices, which was hooked up only to a VCR, but by about 9:45 we found some rabbit ear antennae and turned it on. The only local station we could receive was CBS Channel 2 in New York. Apparently they were one of the only stations who broadcast from the Empire State Building and not from the WTC. With the WTC in flames, all the other stations were essentially off the air.
The screen showed a shot from uptown, looking south at the burning towers. The camera was at least 4 miles from the site, but we could see clearly that both buildings were totally engulfed in smoke from about the 80th floor on up.
I saw how messed up the situation was, went back to my office and tried calling home. Unfortunately it was my wife's first day working at a local pre-school, and she didn' t have a cell phone, so I had no idea if she knew what was going on, or if my kids in school (kindergarten and third grade) knew either.
I went back to the TV and watched the buildings burn. At just before 10 o'clock, I saw something that I just couldn't believe was happening. I watched the south tower begin to collapse, and I could hear a few audible gasps and “Oh my gods” in the room. Nobody could comprehend what we were witnessing. I booked back to my office to try to track down Kate, again with no success.
By now the TV analysts are speaking of terror attacks in Washington also, and that fighters have been scrambled and that the FAA has ordered all commenrcial flights to land immediately.
In my mind, I'm trying to sort things out. I'm a bit ashamed to admit this now, but the thought crossed my mind at the time, that the company I work for is owned by Iranians, and that by some convoluted logic, the building I was in could be a bad place to be on this day. I had no clear reasoning behind this thought, but it was present in my mind.
I went back to the TV and got there just as the second tower collapsed. At first I thought I was seeing a replay of the first tower's collapse, but the I saw niether tower, only smoke and sky. I silently mouthed “Oh my God.” and walked quietly back to my office. I sat down heavily and began thinking about what to do next. All I could think was that this could be the beginning of a much greater series of Bad Events. And then I thought, “Get home.”
I grabbed my keys and headed quietly for the door. I stopped to tell our Human Resources Director that I was going home, and that I'd speak to here later. She said she understood and said “Good luck.”
Traffic was no different on the road. Only my own sense of urgency to get the 40 miles to my house without incident was what was unusual. About 20 miles from work, there is a hill in Ramsey, NJ on Route 17 where, on a normal day on my way into work, I can see the enitre skyline of Mahattan. Today, I can see a crowd of cars and people along the side of the road and in the parking lots on this hill, all staring over my shoulder at the skyline, with the immense plume of smoke billowing at its southern end. I want to stop and stare too, but the pull of seeing my family, and the survivalist instinct that tells me to put as much distance betwen New York and myself, is stronger. I drive on.
I head to my house, which is empty, so I drive to the pre-school, where about half the parents have already picked their kids up early. With only a few kids left to oversee, and with the pre-school only 1//4 mile from our house, Kate tells me to go home and wait for our kids to get off the bus. Apparetly there's no early dismissal or anything unusual about this day in our school system. The authorities have decided to let parents take their kids out early on an individual basis, but in an effort to keep things calm, they have tried to keep things at school as normal as possible.
My wife had arrived home not long after I did, and we sat there numbly watching the whole horrible day unfold.
Sarah was in kindergarten, so her bus got home first. I quizzed here about what she knew, and as a 6 year old, she only knew sketchy details that really didn't seem to bother her. I fed her a snack and sent her to the playroom to keep herself occupied.
My son arrived home a few hours later. As a third grader, he knew the WTC had been attacked, but he didn't seem too concerned. It was just another news story to him. We went to the living room and he sat down to watch the news with me. He got very quiet watching the replays of what had unfolded that morning, but after a while he became bored and headed to the playroom also.
I knew that the world had changed that day. For me, I began to think of people I knew who might have been at the WTC that day. Luckily I could think of only a few, and I made some calls to check on their welfare. Thankfully, no one I was close with had been harmed in the attacks.
I stayed close to my family that day